Hi everyone.
Hope you are doing well after the Ângsbacka retreat! I haven’t got much commitments to share with you. However I have contacted my designer for the webpage and that is the first small step in my giant step to become more visible .
Just want to share how strange and difficult it was to get home and have to built up the energy all by myself. But it has been okay. I have been practising every day. The energy is not the same as in Ängsbacka but it is still very good! Especially the massage of the nipples is so wunderful; it relaxes all my solar plexus. Amazing!
The second night after coming home I had my first result. Well maybe not what you are thinking but I dreamt that I got a new dad. I was in my home as a child together with my mum, dad and youngest big brother. A man came in and I knew it was my new father. He looked a little bit like my original father but he was younger and more smiling. I was shouting with joy. But I was also still happy for my original parantes. Sitting on my original fathers knee shouting: “I got a new dad, I got a new dad”. Well he wasn’t that happy about that! Then went to my mum asking her if my new dad also were father to my sister or brothers. She wasn’t at all happy about that question! But I was happy .
For me it is a dream about that I got a new masculin side coming up, and that I’m still happy about and want to keep the qualities from my mum and original dad’s side. Losing these sides were one of the things what I was afraid of during the course. My parents reaction in the dream showes that one side of me is afraid of the changes but accepts it. Me in the dream showes that I have no doubt that I will integrate it in my life.
Please take care.
Warm wishes, Lars Henrik
Lars first a big thank you for writing here that’s a big commitment in my book. Its interesting is it not how as men we have these very high standards of what we feel is acceptable by other people around us especially in this context of where we are exposing our inner hearts. I feel you state something very important here that I like to discuss further.
What is motivating the men to post here or not? Are they waiting till they can feel what they post is acceptable to themselves or me and Viggo? Did myself and Viggo present a sense of a high standard that needs to be met?
I have asked Viggo to comment on this as well because I do feel it’s very important
From my perspective Im absolutely thrilled you posted it connects me to my time back with you and makes me realize how I cherished getting to know you all
I have to admit to being quite sad until you posted I was like asking myself why do all the men just go silent after a retreat? Is this a male cave quality what’s going on?
Anyway first step with your web site great! I to remember when I started being more visible in the world it was difficult for me I think anytime we put ourselves out there, there is always this sense of what if I don’t make it I know that still goes on for me but I must admit less and less. What I notice is if I just concentrate on what needs to happen day by day and follow through on the small things then a peace arises inside
Once again a big thank you for posting and letting us all know how you doing
IT REALY MAKES MY DAY AND IF YOU GUYS WANT TO MAKE MY DAY PLEASE POST HERE AND LETS BUILD A INTERACTIVE COMMUNITY THAT SUPPORTS AUTHENTIC MALE EXPRESSION IN THE WORLD
My commitment at Ångsbacka was to commit myself to a daily practice, at least one hour with meditation, qi gong, and sexual solo cultivation and so on.
I realized at the course how crucial this is for my life and with this there comes the motivation, even on days when I feel like just staying in bed a little bit longer and a just a little bit longer
In that cases the longtime-perspective- trick is doing wonders for me – and there is just no way of staying in bed.
I usually do 1 – 1.5 hour in the morning, sometimes when I have to work early I split it up, doing half en hour in the morning and half an hour in the evening before bed.
At the moment I start with some shaking and kidney practice, inner smile and the qiqong practice from the course, where I alternate earth pulse one day and ocean breathing another day.
Afterwards I continue with testicle massage and then power lock practice or testicle breathing.
Sometimes I do just testicle massage and testicle breathing before bedtime; the calming effect is just so great and so instantly – it’s creates a feeling of being at peace with my self.
In the evenings I don’t have a “program”, I alternate healingsounds, meditations, autogen training and so on.
I am getting much more aware of my energy and what happens to me when I ejaculate – kind of empty feeling the day afterwards. Its getting as well more clear how the energy again builts up the following days and I can feel how my strength and joy of life is increasing simultaneously.
I was reading it for many years in my acupuncture books and especially mantaks books how precious sperm is for us men and how much life energy we loose through ejaculation, but I never felt this fact so clear in my own body – so now I am really in business learning how to take care of my life energy. I keep you posted.
Thanks a lot for your reply, Andy. Maybe it could be a good idea to invite all to leave a comment even though they don’t think they have anything to tell. When you call it stories of commitment then it maybe can be difficult just to leave a comment.
I didn’t get an email telling me that there was a reply to my comment. It would be easier to follow the comments if I knew about them.
Achim, thanks a lot for your story. Wonderful to hear that you have got a break through!! I hope you will keep on feeling that wonderful energy.
I’m still doing my excercises, testicel massage, the power lock and massaging the nippels all most every morning. Unfortunately I’m very tired so it is only now and then that I get up early going to the local park doing Qigong and listing to the birds. It gives me a lot of energy and calmness when I do but still I can be exhausted some few hours later.
What also makes me frustrated is that I only feel very little desire and lust. I’m getting closer to my former girlfriend, and she is the one I want to be with, having children with and so on, but we have had big problems with the sexual part of our relationship so maybe that is why I get afraid and can’t feel my desire. But I also think it is an older pattern. An adviser told me to be a proud man. I often feel that in my chest and now I started to visualize an erection at the same time. That must be the first step I think so . Please take care, everyone, where ever you are. Lars Henrik
Thanks a lot for wonderful days together at Ängsbacka, and thanks for sharing your stories.
I find your dream about having a new father quite amazing, Lars Henrik. I also like the way you read it, about giving birth to a new masculinity in your self. In my eyes your life seems to be full of commitment at the moment. You also share that it is difficult at times, both with tiredness and lack of desire, but isn’t that precisely why commitment is so important?
Life is very difficult at times, I think all of us can agree on that. The question is, what do we do then? So when I read that you feel pride in your chest, and visualize an erection at the same time, it gives me a lot of joy. Actually I think that’s fantastic advice to everyone – visualize a huge erection and blend it with the pride and courage in the chest. So full of power.
Wonderful to hear of your commitment to daily practice Achim. I do it the same way, as you know – just reflect on the long term perspective and bam, there is the motivation. So amazing.
To me it gets clearer and clearer. Our biggest problem is that we fail to realize to what extent we can determine our own destiny. We try to control what is uncontrollable, and tend to forget what we actually can do something about – which is a lot.
Of course we suffer from never being taught the skill of self-management, that is, how to align our values with our thoughts and actions, how to change our emotional state, and how to take care of our life energy – but the moment that is learned. My God, there is hardly any limit to what we can do.
I can change right now, if I commit to it.
Isn’t that an incredible fact of life?
That’s why these stories of commitment are so important. They show us that it is possible.
And it doesn’t have to be big. Your story of how you handle lack of lust Lars Henrik is very inspirational. You could have chosen to resign, as many of us do when things are difficult. But you didn’t. And not only that. You have also chosen to share your commitment to change.
Summer blessings to all of you fellow white tigers……i appoligise firstly for taking so long to contibute and share,i feel personally that its down to journeying off to cave of knowledge and getting stuck in…..then after the experiences one can share.iamworking on this..also iam quite new to whole computer world so i do find it challanging…..but here iam , it has been moving to read to stories so far…..lars what an incredible dream/vision you have had being reborn…..given a new farther….what a fantastic healing….iam very happy for….and glad u are enjoying your nipple massage….any tips ???this is the one iam not doing as much as everything alse.Also here is that web address for the energetics of food chart..www.meridanpress.net…..enjoy so happy again about your experience lars awe inspiring…lots of love to you…
hey achim good to read you are doing well too………what a differnce the practice does…..keep hold of your essence…love to you…
So firsty i would like to give a gigantic thank you to you andrew and viggo for your teachings,inspiration and elder role models……it has motivated me to become who i truly am…….thank you..xxxx
Iam keeping to the practice every morning and night at least 2hrs a day,and what a differnce it makes its so simple….but so powerfull..iam keeping to a routine of tesstical massage,shaking,lumbar strecting,earth pulsing,sea breathing,tesstical beathering and orbit,penis lenghting,pumping and organsounds at night,and also whenever i can smile inside and out! iam finding this a grtreat way to start and end thge day.Iam not finding a place for the nipple massage within my routine….any tips?? iam growing in every aspect…..all aspects hahaha…..i have so much more energy,sexually,spiritually and whole heartedly…..iam more confident,secure,healthly,direct and attractive…..longevitity is coming….. i have found my practice…….and my teachers/friends/family!!!
Well in terms of my commitment you have inspried in such a way that i lok at tings differently now……so yes no smoking or drinking,its not eeven an issue anymore…..but i have notice that if my lung energy gets dowm i get the thought that i want these things but i know its a false insecurtiy…….revelations……praises be told…. havebeen to festivals,parties and i was th highest one there………breakthrough…
So i finally feel i have something solid to work towards…the true cultivaion of myself….
Also i am spearding the word and enthusiam i have to all men ( and wowmen)to take hold of the lives and start growing to discover their true potential because i also feel that this is a big part of who iam…..the plot thickens…….very excited about this comng to scotland…..well all my love to you all and keep massaging those balls o essence……thank you from the dpths of my heart.x simon potts
Simon my appologys I did not see this post in the admin section untill today. I have to approve the posts before they are seen here.
It sounds like a lot is happaning wow you are practising a lot thats great. Yes me and Viggo are happy to be coming to Scotland spring 2011 should be very powerful blessings to you and a big thank you for taking the time to post
Hi Simon. 1½ months since you wrote your comment but I can still feel the energy in Copenhagen. I hope that you also still can feel it. It is amazing to read about .
Nipple massage comes very natural to me. After testicle massage, the pulling and the power lock I feel the desire to lie down. Then the nipple massage is natural for me. I think about the major glands while I do the massage and often ends with getting in contact with the inner nature. Putting the sun underneath the water is often also a part of my practice directing the sun towards the perineum where I have a lot of tension and hidden energy. Normally it all together makes me very relax and calm.
The testicle breathing I don’t use a lot. Don’t understand why because I felt it very wonderful during the course.
My life – or life situation is the right word – doesn’t seem to grow the way you describe it. I try very much to follow my heart (and that I am proud about) but the outer world is not responding the way I hoped. But I learn a lot about my inner world and try to remember to say yes to what is. Getting more visible is still my overall theme and I have in many ways putted my self in a situation where I have to go out into the light and see what happens. How scary!
Andrew and Viggo: I mentioned shortly at the course that I had some red spots on my penis. It hurts when I have erection and during intercourse. The doctors call it zoon balanit or plasma balanit. For me that is just words. What I know is that I have had that problems for years and I don’t want to have it any more. I have read that it can have something to do with the problems I have had in my large intestine. I have tried a lot of different kinds of creams. It makes it less itching but it doesn’t solve the problems. Some suggests circumcision. Well, I don’t know. If you have or hear about any ideas please let me know. Thanks!
I have read “Passionate Marriage” by David Schnarch. I found it very interesting and I will recommend it to all white tigers . Its about keeping sex, love and intimacy a live in a relationship. Love to all of you, Lars Henrik
Hi Andy and Viggo,
Thanks for the Malmö weekend.Its been very refreshing and has opened a new door and a new meaning to the term musculinity.Stay blesed.
Hope you are doing well after the Ângsbacka retreat! I haven’t got much commitments to share with you. However I have contacted my designer for the webpage and that is the first small step in my giant step to become more visible
Just want to share how strange and difficult it was to get home and have to built up the energy all by myself. But it has been okay. I have been practising every day. The energy is not the same as in Ängsbacka but it is still very good! Especially the massage of the nipples is so wunderful; it relaxes all my solar plexus. Amazing!
The second night after coming home I had my first result. Well maybe not what you are thinking but I dreamt that I got a new dad. I was in my home as a child together with my mum, dad and youngest big brother. A man came in and I knew it was my new father. He looked a little bit like my original father but he was younger and more smiling. I was shouting with joy. But I was also still happy for my original parantes. Sitting on my original fathers knee shouting: “I got a new dad, I got a new dad”. Well he wasn’t that happy about that! Then went to my mum asking her if my new dad also were father to my sister or brothers. She wasn’t at all happy about that question! But I was happy
For me it is a dream about that I got a new masculin side coming up, and that I’m still happy about and want to keep the qualities from my mum and original dad’s side. Losing these sides were one of the things what I was afraid of during the course. My parents reaction in the dream showes that one side of me is afraid of the changes but accepts it. Me in the dream showes that I have no doubt that I will integrate it in my life.
Please take care.
Warm wishes, Lars Henrik
What is motivating the men to post here or not? Are they waiting till they can feel what they post is acceptable to themselves or me and Viggo? Did myself and Viggo present a sense of a high standard that needs to be met?
I have asked Viggo to comment on this as well because I do feel it’s very important
From my perspective Im absolutely thrilled you posted it connects me to my time back with you and makes me realize how I cherished getting to know you all
I have to admit to being quite sad until you posted I was like asking myself why do all the men just go silent after a retreat? Is this a male cave quality what’s going on?
Anyway first step with your web site great! I to remember when I started being more visible in the world it was difficult for me I think anytime we put ourselves out there, there is always this sense of what if I don’t make it I know that still goes on for me but I must admit less and less. What I notice is if I just concentrate on what needs to happen day by day and follow through on the small things then a peace arises inside
Once again a big thank you for posting and letting us all know how you doing
IT REALY MAKES MY DAY AND IF YOU GUYS WANT TO MAKE MY DAY PLEASE POST HERE AND LETS BUILD A INTERACTIVE COMMUNITY THAT SUPPORTS AUTHENTIC MALE EXPRESSION IN THE WORLD
Much Love Andy
Lars I posted a reply to your story check it ou tCheers Andy
My commitment at Ångsbacka was to commit myself to a daily practice, at least one hour with meditation, qi gong, and sexual solo cultivation and so on.
I realized at the course how crucial this is for my life and with this there comes the motivation, even on days when I feel like just staying in bed a little bit longer and a just a little bit longer
In that cases the longtime-perspective- trick is doing wonders for me – and there is just no way of staying in bed.
I usually do 1 – 1.5 hour in the morning, sometimes when I have to work early I split it up, doing half en hour in the morning and half an hour in the evening before bed.
At the moment I start with some shaking and kidney practice, inner smile and the qiqong practice from the course, where I alternate earth pulse one day and ocean breathing another day.
Afterwards I continue with testicle massage and then power lock practice or testicle breathing.
Sometimes I do just testicle massage and testicle breathing before bedtime; the calming effect is just so great and so instantly – it’s creates a feeling of being at peace with my self.
In the evenings I don’t have a “program”, I alternate healingsounds, meditations, autogen training and so on.
I am getting much more aware of my energy and what happens to me when I ejaculate – kind of empty feeling the day afterwards. Its getting as well more clear how the energy again builts up the following days and I can feel how my strength and joy of life is increasing simultaneously.
I was reading it for many years in my acupuncture books and especially mantaks books how precious sperm is for us men and how much life energy we loose through ejaculation, but I never felt this fact so clear in my own body – so now I am really in business learning how to take care of my life energy. I keep you posted.
Achim
I didn’t get an email telling me that there was a reply to my comment. It would be easier to follow the comments if I knew about them.
Achim, thanks a lot for your story. Wonderful to hear that you have got a break through!! I hope you will keep on feeling that wonderful energy.
I’m still doing my excercises, testicel massage, the power lock and massaging the nippels all most every morning. Unfortunately I’m very tired so it is only now and then that I get up early going to the local park doing Qigong and listing to the birds. It gives me a lot of energy and calmness when I do but still I can be exhausted some few hours later.
What also makes me frustrated is that I only feel very little desire and lust. I’m getting closer to my former girlfriend, and she is the one I want to be with, having children with and so on, but we have had big problems with the sexual part of our relationship so maybe that is why I get afraid and can’t feel my desire. But I also think it is an older pattern. An adviser told me to be a proud man. I often feel that in my chest and now I started to visualize an erection at the same time. That must be the first step I think so
Thanks a lot for wonderful days together at Ängsbacka, and thanks for sharing your stories.
I find your dream about having a new father quite amazing, Lars Henrik. I also like the way you read it, about giving birth to a new masculinity in your self. In my eyes your life seems to be full of commitment at the moment. You also share that it is difficult at times, both with tiredness and lack of desire, but isn’t that precisely why commitment is so important?
Life is very difficult at times, I think all of us can agree on that. The question is, what do we do then? So when I read that you feel pride in your chest, and visualize an erection at the same time, it gives me a lot of joy. Actually I think that’s fantastic advice to everyone – visualize a huge erection and blend it with the pride and courage in the chest. So full of power.
Wonderful to hear of your commitment to daily practice Achim. I do it the same way, as you know – just reflect on the long term perspective and bam, there is the motivation. So amazing.
To me it gets clearer and clearer. Our biggest problem is that we fail to realize to what extent we can determine our own destiny. We try to control what is uncontrollable, and tend to forget what we actually can do something about – which is a lot.
Of course we suffer from never being taught the skill of self-management, that is, how to align our values with our thoughts and actions, how to change our emotional state, and how to take care of our life energy – but the moment that is learned. My God, there is hardly any limit to what we can do.
I can change right now, if I commit to it.
Isn’t that an incredible fact of life?
That’s why these stories of commitment are so important. They show us that it is possible.
And it doesn’t have to be big. Your story of how you handle lack of lust Lars Henrik is very inspirational. You could have chosen to resign, as many of us do when things are difficult. But you didn’t. And not only that. You have also chosen to share your commitment to change.
So, thanks a lot guys.
Viggo.
hey achim good to read you are doing well too………what a differnce the practice does…..keep hold of your essence…love to you…
So firsty i would like to give a gigantic thank you to you andrew and viggo for your teachings,inspiration and elder role models……it has motivated me to become who i truly am…….thank you..xxxx
Iam keeping to the practice every morning and night at least 2hrs a day,and what a differnce it makes its so simple….but so powerfull..iam keeping to a routine of tesstical massage,shaking,lumbar strecting,earth pulsing,sea breathing,tesstical beathering and orbit,penis lenghting,pumping and organsounds at night,and also whenever i can smile inside and out! iam finding this a grtreat way to start and end thge day.Iam not finding a place for the nipple massage within my routine….any tips?? iam growing in every aspect…..all aspects hahaha…..i have so much more energy,sexually,spiritually and whole heartedly…..iam more confident,secure,healthly,direct and attractive…..longevitity is coming….. i have found my practice…….and my teachers/friends/family!!!
Well in terms of my commitment you have inspried in such a way that i lok at tings differently now……so yes no smoking or drinking,its not eeven an issue anymore…..but i have notice that if my lung energy gets dowm i get the thought that i want these things but i know its a false insecurtiy…….revelations……praises be told…. havebeen to festivals,parties and i was th highest one there………breakthrough…
So i finally feel i have something solid to work towards…the true cultivaion of myself….
Also i am spearding the word and enthusiam i have to all men ( and wowmen)to take hold of the lives and start growing to discover their true potential because i also feel that this is a big part of who iam…..the plot thickens…….very excited about this comng to scotland…..well all my love to you all and keep massaging those balls o essence……thank you from the dpths of my heart.x simon potts
It sounds like a lot is happaning wow you are practising a lot thats great. Yes me and Viggo are happy to be coming to Scotland spring 2011 should be very powerful blessings to you and a big thank you for taking the time to post
Thanks a lot for sharing!
Your letter is so full of strength and truth, it makes me really happy and grateful.
Look immensely forward to see you all in Scotland.
Love,
Viggo.
Nipple massage comes very natural to me. After testicle massage, the pulling and the power lock I feel the desire to lie down. Then the nipple massage is natural for me. I think about the major glands while I do the massage and often ends with getting in contact with the inner nature. Putting the sun underneath the water is often also a part of my practice directing the sun towards the perineum where I have a lot of tension and hidden energy. Normally it all together makes me very relax and calm.
The testicle breathing I don’t use a lot. Don’t understand why because I felt it very wonderful during the course.
My life – or life situation is the right word – doesn’t seem to grow the way you describe it. I try very much to follow my heart (and that I am proud about) but the outer world is not responding the way I hoped. But I learn a lot about my inner world and try to remember to say yes to what is. Getting more visible is still my overall theme and I have in many ways putted my self in a situation where I have to go out into the light and see what happens. How scary!
Andrew and Viggo: I mentioned shortly at the course that I had some red spots on my penis. It hurts when I have erection and during intercourse. The doctors call it zoon balanit or plasma balanit. For me that is just words. What I know is that I have had that problems for years and I don’t want to have it any more. I have read that it can have something to do with the problems I have had in my large intestine. I have tried a lot of different kinds of creams. It makes it less itching but it doesn’t solve the problems. Some suggests circumcision. Well, I don’t know. If you have or hear about any ideas please let me know. Thanks!
I have read “Passionate Marriage” by David Schnarch. I found it very interesting and I will recommend it to all white tigers
about the problem with the rash I will talk to you more in Copenhagen Cheers
Thanks for the Malmö weekend.Its been very refreshing and has opened a new door and a new meaning to the term musculinity.Stay blesed.
Tom